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…not only manifest frailty, but strength as well. So, i let mine flow ’till my own frailness becomes a sturdy wall strong enough to shield me from life’s wave of trials.

More often than not, just being there is not the best comfort in a relationship. Communication is essential to feel each other’s presence…

I just happened to stumble on this “essay” (i think) from my jblomtz letter box and I thought of sharing it with you. I wrote this during the time when I almost fell for someone who was not meant to be loved. This momentary insanity of mine occured sometime between Feb ‘99 and Nov ‘99.

“What is it that beckons man to temptation? Is it because of his so-called emotion that is facilely beguiled? Or is it because of his liberated mind that is so debauchedly unfettered?

Our emotions can really be deceptive at times. In our pursuit for true and lasting happiness, we refuse to relent to our mind’s rationality, so much to our conscience’s ethics. We tend to eject whatever sensible explaination there is because our heart is dominating three-fourths of our entire system. The moment our heart is ignited by some egregious fervor, it will become dependent to that feeling–becoming addicted to it. Such overwhelmed rapture is common to those who are “emotionally deprived of.” Those who feel un-loved or less loved by anybody. Eventually, submission to carnality would then be inevitable as morality is being hampered by the addiction.

Nevertheless, prejudice is never tolerated here. Let us not put all the indictment on our pathetic emotion. The mind has something to partake too. It is not always the emotion that drives man to temptation. Somehow, we know when temptation comes…and we can feel it. A tiny voice then cautious us to be on guard and to concede not to the enticement. But man is never satisfied. His mind never rests from seeking new challenges, always defying even insurmountable quests…and temptation is one. The sweetness of what is forbidden is indeed pleasantly puzzling. As curiosity arises, the mind plays its part. Weighing the consequences, the mind goes for it, disregarding the conscience’s exhortation.

…And before we know it, the effects of our “demented behaviour” is more grisly than what we have expected. It is now facing us fiercely…monster-like. Its claws strip us of our dignity, while its pestilent breath suffocates us to eternal damnation.

But then again, how should we distinguish between love and temptation? What then if in our entire life we have not fallen for anybody, but to someone whose life is already bequeathed to somebody? How can we resist temptation when we are feeling the kind of emotion that has never before been part of our system? Should we try to yield to life’s norms and renounce the zeal of passion? Or should we fight for the love we feel to the disgrace of our own dignity?

Love is like a diamond with many facets…so many that you can never tell which side you’re facing.”

The truth is, I really am not sure whether I wrote it or just read it from some magazine and copied it. Hehe! One thing that made me think it’s my composition are the corrections I made (i gather) on this.If you have any knowledge of such writing being published in any magazine or newspaper, please do let me know. The last thing I want is to be charged with plagiarism…Thanks!

Why is it that there are people who never listen?

….I’m gonna explode

Here I am in front of my computer, thinking about what to write. No, I’m not thinking about the answer to my case study in my MIM class. I’m thinking about how to pour my heart out by using this feature in Friendster for the first time. I haven’t really read any blog sites, ‘coz I thought why should I bother myself with other people’s outbursts and rants and thoughts/experiences and whatever it is they put on their blogs when I’m so busy trying to juggle my role as an understanding wife, a good daughter-in-law, a responsible mother, a tangible friend, and a punctual office worker? Well, suffice to say, a blog site is useful to me after all…

A weblog  becomes your ally in times when you really want something off your chest. Sure I can talk to some friends of mine about whatever is this I’m feeling right now. You see, I have two bestfriends among my set of friends and a “bestest” friend (yeah, I know there is no such word…so??!) apart from the two…But what if your bestest friend goes offline just when you’ve logged on to YM? or you received a sending failure notification from MailerDaemon when you e-mailed him? or the person at the other end says the number you dialed is out of coverage area? or your network provider failed to deliver your SMS to his cell phone? I know I can always count on my friends. They’d probably listen to me no matter how shallow my problem is, give me a pat at the back, give me sound advices, or tell me words that I want to hear. Nay, there are just some things in life that you can only tell to your bestest friend — especially if that friend is your better half…

Don’t get me wrong. I won’t be spewing everything I have in mind or half of these haywire feelings I’m having now to millions of strangers who might read this. I only want to pour half of what’s inside my heart out. The other half? Guess I’d just have to leave it to the ONE who’s In CHARGE.

Have a nice day everyone!